Writing for me is like a hot cup of coffee in the morning, a bubble bath at night or a wet kiss from a little puppy. THERAPY. It’s my way of expressing myself and being vulnerable without feeling judged or condemned. I wanted to write about inner strength because I believe it’s something we all try to seek out in ourselves on a day to day basis. Finding inner strength within myself is one of the things I strive for every single day. I’ve worked a million different jobs from modeling for clothing companies, to music videos to featured work on movies. It’s my passion. But so many of the people you meet in this industry are phony and only out for themselves. Having the courage to stand alone and stay true to yourself is one of the hardest things to do. It’s so easy to just fall into being what others want you to be, or doing things that other people want you to do so that you feel acceptance. When I was younger I was a party animal. I held a full time job, nonetheless, but I was always looking for another outlet to help me forget my worries, anxiety and the troubles around me. I never wanted to face head on the feelings I had deep down, so I turned to the party scene. Something that will stick out in my memory forever is that once I told all my ‘friends’ I quit drinking, they disappeared. That’s a lesson that I keep with me to this day. Finding inner strength is something I know comes with age and time. I’m STRONG for believing in myself even when I probably was the only one that did. I have a passion and drive within me that keeps me going, even when I feel like I’m at a dead end. I’m HUMAN. There’s days that I don’t feel like I’ve accomplished anything and I get lonely because I feel like I’m searching for something I can’t even explain.
The main purpose of my blog is so that I can pour my thoughts out, and my followers can get to know the REAL me and relate. I don’t want to be known for being just a model. There’s so much substance and depth within me, and writing is one of the best ways I know I can reach out to other people. Social forums such as Instagram, Twitter and Facebook are for people that like you for your surface, your appearance and your persona. I’m so much more than that. I’m compassionate, hardworking, and driven. I’m DEEP. I get lost, just like you. I have imperfections and flaws. I QUESTION myself. I’m just trying to find my own path, one that hasn’t been paved by anyone else.